Okay so this is going to be new and different for me. I've been extremely angry for a while. Well, at least the past couple days. Songs like Shinedown-45, Smile Empty Soul-Bottom of a Bottle, and Smashing Pumpkins-Bullet with Butterfly Wings....were....well....making me happy. Which is scary for me. I don't ever want to be that person again.....and I know that my friends don't want to see me there again. (FYI...extremely unhappy Goth)

After an exhausting day on Saturday of planking a deck and watching Jurassic Park in Matt's theatre I had finally made some decisions. First and foremost, appologize for my childish behavior. Second, really go to church on Sunday. Closely following this thought was how much I really need to go to confession. I haven't done that in 8 years because...well simply, my sins are between me and God and only He is going to know if I'm actually sorry for my actions. But right now I need to hear someone say the words. I need to find my faith again. I also need to forgive myself.

So sitting in chuch for 45 minutes before mass started on Sunday, I felt close to God for the first time in a long while. I also started thinking about where my life was headed and where my focus should be. And then I thought about being a nun. And ever since then I've been seriously considering it as a serious possibility.

NPN and AS were a blast to hang out with Sunday night. Swimming, PF Chang's, it was a good time. I have a feeling we're going to be seeing A LOT of each other. lol. Have either of you seen my roomate? I haven't seen her in a couple days....I'd post a missing persons ad, but her aways message keeps changing so I know she's been in the apartment. Oh well. But damn it, I'm unpacking the kitchen tonight. See if I don't. I wanna cook.... :)