The Redundant Ramblings of an Insane Mind

Okay, so I'm nuts. I think that everyone should know that up front. But I enjoy my insanity. I feel sorry for people that suffer from theirs. I'm an Irish Catholic Redhead. Picture that! hehehe. Anything else you want to know just ask!

Wednesday, October 19, 2005

The greatest morning I've had in a long time

I woke up this morning, after a hour of sleep, next to an incredibly amazing guy. LOL. We missed the first 40 minutes of our practice. Yes, that right, he dances. Photography major. He smells good too! KF is pissed at us. Oppsssss. We had the most interesting conversations last night. Why is dirty dirty and clean clean? What makes purity pure? Are these learned conditions or genetically programmed? Religion. It was great. It helps that Penny and Tony were tapping off our drinks all night. We were both a little "tipsy" when we headed to my apt. The ironic thing is that he actually stayed over so that we could be to practice on time. I'm sorry, but when you're looking into these amazing chocolate brown eyes where is the motivation to get out of bed? Answer: There isn't any. So we kept smacking my alarm clock. Neal and Ben were looking at us funny after practice and Courtney asked why we kept giggling. Yes, he giggles as much as I do. But we went from discussing our bad porn music band to night club two step in 10 minutes. And somehow we managed to shower in there? There were bound to be some left over giggles. We weren't allowed to dance together at practice. I think that it'll be interesting to see where this goes. Lots to think on.

Thursday, October 13, 2005

brief and incoherent

I'm burnt out. Completely and unequivically done. There's just too much on my plate right now. I'm not really sure if I'm living or simply surviving. I love the 'cats, and my friends, and things are great, but I just don't know if I can keep going at my current pace. G said that I looked like a ghost last night at volleyball. I'm playing better than ever, but I look like a ghost, a shadow of my former self. I laughed it off, but it really hit home. I need to start taking care of myself. Which is why I'm leaving indy for the weekend. After practice tonight I'm headed home. It's going to be a hell of a trip and I don't know if I'll make it all the way, but I need to do this. Mom's worried about me. She told me I was forbidden from coming home tonight. I told her that I loved her and that I'm perfectly capable of making my own decisions. I'd see her tomorrow. And I'm going to nap between work and practice so I'll be fine. She just worries too much. I'm her baby, what can I say? I don't eat any more. Or more than that, I'm never hungry. But now my stomach is growling and I feel that I should give it something to shut it up. Roly Poly again. I spent the morning in Columbus. I felt bad for sleeping the entire drive, but whatever. I was awake enough to talk intelligently during brunch and I made it back for class. Whooooooppppppiieee. I'm kinda stalling here at the desk in UC waiting for BOA to come back, but he isn't and I want food so I'm going to go. I hope that everyone has a great weekend and I'll see you on the flip side, home slice!

Tuesday, October 11, 2005

quick update

You know, until Sunday I thought that it wasn't possible to dance any more than we already were. I was wrong. Seriously, wrong. Somehow we're squeezing six more hours out of the week. But I love it. My shoues finally came in, and it hurts to break them in, but I love them. My flag football team made the championship (kicked the 'Hazes buts 46-12), it's next week at 5:00. Be there to cheer us on. Go Ballhall Bombers! (Ironic because only 1 person on the teams lives in Ball.) I think I'm headed home Thursday night after practice. I'm debating between surprising my parents and calling to let them know that I'll be home around 2 a.m. It just depends on how things are going and how much sleep I get. It's time for me to go have CK make me some Rolly Polly. I'm addicted, but I love it. Later y'all!

And AMS, I'm sorry for not calling you back on Sunday it was 11:30 before BE and BOA left and I had to do homework. And last night I was at practice until after 11 and had a paper due by 12. I swear, I have to start doing my homework and opening the books. lol. later honey!

Tuesday, October 04, 2005

Note to all reading this....

I'm sorry, I haven't read anyone's blog in about a month-ish. If there is anything that you feel is important and I should know about, please leave it to me in a comment. It isn't that you aren't important to me, it's just that until December I'm not going to have time to stalk people. I'll catch up after Cash Bash.


All she wants to do is dance.....

...and that's all I do. If you ever want to know where I am, I'm dancing.
Monday Night: Teach class 7-8:45 p.m., Newbie Class 9-10 p.m., Smoke Talk 10-11 p.m.
Tuesday: Social Dancing, generally Cafe at Ray or Knights of Columbus 6-11 p.m.
Wednesday: Teach Basic Class 7-8 a.m.
Thursday: Teach Ballroom Class 7-8:45 p.m., Performance Team 9-10 p.m., Smoke Talk 10-11 p.m.
Friday-Saturday: Social Dancing with IBC, Rebels, Fred Aistare, whatever
Sunday: Dance Committee Meeting and Madame Walker

Don't forget flag football Monday nights and volleyball on Wednesday nights. Which explains how I received a C on my Geography test, a B on Destinations test, and I didn't open the book for the one I just took until last night.

I haven't slept in two days. Sunday I was talking to C and then just had a lot to think about and last night I had to study. I haven't spoken to my family in a week. I haven't spoken to most of my friends in longer than that. I'm sorry guys. I miss you, more than you know, I just need this right now. I need to perform and work my ass off, and be with the team. They're great. Not exactly good for me, but awesome. They're just a lot of shit going down in the team, and the board has a lot to deal with, FYI I'm unofficial V.P. We're voting after the Skippy stuff in November.

I would like to point out for AMS's benefit, that I'm not smoking at smoke talk, I'm just sitting in a cloud of everyone else's smoke. So will you still treat my lung cancer when I get old?

Other Random Stuff:
I bought and IPOD. It's great. I love it.
Definitely have a crush :) on CK.
Swimming Daily.
Growing my hair out.
TD and I are actually getting along. lol.
CM quit at work.
I love Rolly Polly, #37
I seriously need at night out with friends, probably won't happen for a while.

I hope that everyone is doing good. I really do miss you all!